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That got your attention. The answer is no. I know this because I’m able to feel emotions like sadness, and to empathise. But just to check, I did an online test entitled ‘Are you a psychopath or a narcissist?’ I was pleased to confirm that I am not a psychopath. Slightly less pleased when it turned out that the test thinks I might be a narcissist. The leads me to think that it is probably wildly inaccurate (she says, blogging extensively about herself).

But Jon Ronson’s book, ‘The Psychopath Test‘, has definitely got me thinking. I’m half way through it, and am enjoying it so much I’m going to bed way after my bed-time. It’s laugh-out-loud funny. Bob Hare, who came up with the original psychopath test, really didn’t appreciate the trivialisation of such a serious personality disorder – him and the rest of the psychology/psychiatry profession. I did, though. As, I suspect, did many other readers.

How can psychopathy be so entertaining? I should caveat this with the fact that there’s nothing I enjoy more than a good murder – written or on film. Silent Witness’ – which quite frankly probably leaves its actors scarred for life – is a personal favourite. 

Jon Ronson explores the world of psychopathy, and looks in particular at the possibility that around 4% of the top echelons of organisations are psychopaths. This is compared to around 1% of the general population. As they can’t really put the question in a census, I think it’s safe to say that the 1% figure is an estimate. He gives examples of businessmen who allegedly enjoy firing people to the point of pathology, and have statues of predators all over their mansions. Ronson visits prisons and finds most psychopaths to be charming, erudite, expert manipulators. 

This got me thinking. I work in the aid industry. I bet you’re thinking we’re all pretty empathetic, out there saving poor people and all. And to a certain extent that’s true. But I couldn’t help but think, as Ronson went through some of the characteristics of a psychopath, that something struck a chord. On his website, Hare says that:

“As things stand, we do not know the prevalence of psychopathy among those who work on Wall Street. It may be even higher than 10%, on the assumption that psychopathic entrepreneurs and risk-takers tend to gravitate toward financial watering-holes, particularly those that are enormously lucrative and poorly regulated. But, until the research has been conducted, we are left with anecdotal evidence and widespread speculation.” (See full article here).

Hmmmm. Lucrative and poorly regulated? Watering-hole? That sounds familiar. You only have to read ‘Lords of Poverty‘ and ‘Dead Aid‘ to see that these characteristics could well be applied to my industry. And once you’ve worked at country level, you know they can be. Let’s take a few and work it through. Of course, I realise that in doing this, I am being true to form and destroying idealism. Bear with me: I’ve only been back a year. I’ll get idealistic in 2014. 

  • Grandiose sense of self worth. Am thinking about the heads of advocacy at most affiliates of hand relief international. Say no more.
  • Pathological lying. Aid definitely works. That’s what the adverts say. And what we tell ourselves. What do you mean, corruption? What organisational free fall?
  • Parasitic lifestyle. Just thinking of my generous accommodation allowance, flights home and salary whilst I eradicated poverty in Africa. And I wasn’t even working for the UN.
  • Lack of realistic, long-term goals. Millennium Development Goals. Say no more. 
  • Need for stimulation: prone-ness to boredom. We stay in country for 3 years, tops, by which time we understand the country almost enough to begin eradicating poverty in it. We then move on to somewhere else and blithely apply what we’ve learnt, because all poor places are pretty much the same anyway.
  • Promiscuous sexual behaviour. Have you read Emergency Sex?

Of course, I imagine that you could run through these characteristics, and the others, for any industry and come up trumps. Take political leaders. Mugabe? Reckon he must be up there. Idi Amin? Even if the head in the fridge story isn’t true, we’ve all seen ‘The Last King of Scotland’. 

In the UK? Chris Huhne certainly showed some criminal versatility in getting his wife to take his penalty points (although I wouldn’t say this puts him up there with Charles Manson). 

And lastly, failure to accept responsibility for own actions: ref the Afghanistan chapter of Tony Blair’s memoirs.

 

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It’s hotting up in Kampala, and none of us are quite sure where it’s headed. My first notification on Friday came from an American friend working near Nakasero market, who heard gunshots nearby. The security notifications came thick and fast after that. I was sitting on the balcony at work in a leafy suburb of Kampala, thinking, “trouble never comes here“, when I heard fireworks/firecrackers/gunshots. I opted for the latter, given the context, and observed vans, boda bodas (motorbikes) and large military vehicles with even larger guns rushing towards my neighbourhood. I carried on typing until my colleague Gilbert popped his head out after a new volley of gunshots and said tactfully,

“You don’t think you should, well, come inside? Seems a bit of a risky place to be sitting.”

Good point. I shuffled inside. I tried to stream the Royal Wedding online, but the gunshots were distracting and all that rioting interrupted my concentration – priorities, people!

The walk to work starts again tomorrow. Apparently, those people planning on walking can do so as long as they notify their local police.

Weather forecast: overcast with teargas and rubber bullets.

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We’re big on diversity in the my organisation, a Hand Relief International affiliate. It’s a cornerstone of everything we do. We’re all about justice, integrity, raising the voices of the powerless.  We’re especially keen on empowering people: poor people (we still don’t seem to be able to get past seeing them as one cuddly, homogenous whole lot of poor people); women and children; homosexuals; minorities of all sorts. In short, you name them, we are probably, somewhere in the world, trying to empower them.

It sounds so simple. And so right. But the question is: how to work on equality and empowerment when the majority of the population, and your staff, aren’t so interested in empowerment, equality or justice – or at least, they’re not so keen on it for everyone.

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My first brush with this came when working for a donor, in A N Other African country, when I was Emma. Said donor was on a diversity drive around sexual orientation, and quite right too. Where I come from, accepting differences in sexual orientation is seen as A Very Good Thing, and is for me, a no brainer. Every time I wandered through the office lobby, though, something was nagging me. What was it? Aha! After a week or so, I realised that someone had covered up the half of the diversity poster which said that the organisation respected people of all sexual orientations. How embarrassing, I thought. I called a meeting with my slightly loony line managee. (At the risk of being un-diverse about mental health, he later turned out to be an absolute madman, but that’s another story, and at this point I still had hope that I could manage this man without any risk of personal harm, and perhaps even change him. I hear you sniggering at the back).

We sat down for a chat about it. “Ernest*”, I said. “Ernest, I saw something funny the other day. Someone – and I can’t imagine who – has covered up the diversity message on the new poster with the little stick men holding hands with stick men, and stick women with stick women. Can you imagine?”

“I know”, said Ernest, not looking overly earnest at all (which to be fair makes sense, given that it’s not his name. In fact, his real name is not even an adjective). “That was me.”

Hmm. He wasn’t looking overly ashamed of himself. I tried a new, and not particularly original, tack.

“But on joining this organisation you signed up to our Core Values,” I said, trying not to sound whiny. “Can’t you see that this is not OK?”

“But,” he countered (the clever little sod), “homosexuality is illegal in this country, and my first obligation is as a citizen, not as an employee of my old organisation.”

I was slightly flummoxed by this. I’m not sure why. After a few years I am now used to this argument, but at the time it was horrifying. In the end, I used an unoriginal tactic to leap this hurdle. I had to pull the I Am Boss card. “I’m your boss, so take the covering off the poster.”

Now, if in the UK I asked someone to put up a poster to support something that is illegal and, as far as they are concerned should never be legalised and decays society – say, smuggling heroin or kidnapping children – and many Africans do see homosexuality on this level – they’d report me to HR or the police. However, the I Am Boss card works surprisingly well in much of Africa, even when people think you are being completely unreasonable (except perhaps Kenya – don’t try it there). It did this time. In fact, I really do have to check myself to keep myself from turning into some sort of mini despot.

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My only strategy for dealing with this has been to try to become more tolerant of intolerance and to understand it, and to engage with it in a calm, zen-like manner. “Ha!” I hear you say, “sounds impossible, without a large dose of sedatives.” And you’re on the money. My new policy was first tested to its fullest extent in late 2009 when Edgar**, who manages poverty eradication and equality programmes, said that my organisation would need to change its diversity policy if the Bahati Bill passed in Parliament. For those not in the know, homosexuality would be punishable by death under this law, and people who know someone is gay and don’t report it could get 2 years in prison. Oh, and most Ugandans support it. “But Edgar,” I said, trying not sound patronising [I always do  end up sounding patronising in these situations], “if people are born that way, isn’t it best to embrace that diversity?” [Or something along those lines].

“No one is born like that. Africans are not gay. It is the job of their pastor and their family to cure them,” he responded, dispelling my zen state of mind. This is, incidentally, a view allegedly shared by some American evangelical churches who oppose the bill because they think homosexuality can be ‘cured’: no coincidence, as Uganda is the second most evangelical country in the world, after the US. [There’s a high chance any plane headed here has a large portion of missionaries on it. With my fear of flying, this always gives me hope that a crash is less likely on a ‘God plane’].

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It’s easy make light of all of this and to ridicule this bigotry (after all, I just did, for a page and a half). But it’s a very real dilemma for any of us working on, or interested in, human rights issues in Uganda. I find the homophobia here disturbing and repulsive. But Ugandans have a right to their law and opinions. Who are we, as foreigners, to impose our views and judge them, they say? And I can see their point. If some Ugandan came to London and started lobbying for these kinds of Draconian laws, we’d put them straight back on the plane.

It’s also tricky for any of us wanting to make non-expat friends. At home, if someone came out with some of the bigoted comments I hear here, I’d avoid them at all costs. But if you want to have Ugandan friends, you need to be prepared for those kinds of statements, and to find a balance between challenging them and recognising that barring everyone who doesn’t agree with your opinion means you won’t have any local friends, learn much about the country, or enjoy many of the wonderful things the country and its people have to offer. Excluding them from your circle because of their lack of diversity on one issue means that you miss out on learning about the diversity of the country as a whole.

I have almost managed to strike that balance, but I walk a tightrope. I was out with my 2 closest Ugandan girlfriends last week for some tea and gossip. We were having a great time, discussing love lives, marriage, the usual. My friend Bernice*** was telling us about this male friend who she spends a lot of time with, adores [and the feeling is mutual] but doesn’t feel any sexual tension with, and is sooo comfortable with. We mulled over the reasons, and I suggested that maybe he’s gay. Of course it’s only a possibility, but some of my male friends matching that description are gay. My 2 friends threw their heads back and howled with laughter. Rather nonplussed, I pointed out that 10% of the population is probably gay here. After an awkward silence, they rolled their eyes –”here she goes, with her silly Muzungu ideas” – and carried on chatting. How to handle these situations? I still don’t know, a few years in to my time here. It’s offensive to me that people can’t live and let live, but clearly what I am saying is offensive to them. We’ve reached an uneasy truce for the sake of the other areas of our lives where we get on and love each other.

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 In an attempt to boost my tolerance and general happiness, I have taken up yoga. The benefits have been significant, and noticeable to others. On Monday, I was telling my friend and colleague Margaret about this over lunch. She’s just been through a nasty breakup, so I invited her along to class as I thought it might give her a boost.

“I’m sorry, I can’t come. My pastor says we shouldn’t go to yoga,” she said, “because it opens us up to demons.”

I greeted this with an uncharacteristically diplomatic silence and chowed down on my matooke. My yoga teacher would tell me to just send love out to the world, but I’m not quite there yet. I like Margaret’s company a lot, though. Let’s not fall out over yoga, I thought.

Today, she invited me to her church. Instead of gracefully declining, as I usually do, I said, “I’m not going along to a church where some pastor is going to tell me that bl00dy yoga is demonic.”

“Well, if it’s not true, it doesn’t matter, you can still come,” she said, in a reasonable tone.

“Well, if that’s the case, come to yoga then,” I semi-snapped.

It’s hard to be tolerant of intolerance.

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*not his real name. Although there are an alarmingly high number of people with names like Ernest in Uganda – it’s like stepping into an episode of Foyle’s War.

**also not his name. But again, a popular one here.

***I’m really not making this up. This isn’t her name, but this one is SO popular here.

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